So Here's The Deal.

I'm going forward with plans for the mission trip to Africa.


A couple of posts ago I explained why it was time to wait, and why I felt God saying "not yet."  Since then I've spent even more time in prayer, talking with friends, and reading a ton to try and gain a little guidance, because after that last post, I started to feel miserable inside.  I don't think it's wrong to second-guess or to pause if things feel wrong, but I couldn't stop thinking about Africa and that maybe I'd come to the wrong conclusion with waiting.


I still stand by what I said before...I was going for the wrong reasons.  And I was trying to make everything work by my own strength.  And that's the wrong way to go about things.  But the fact beneath everything else is that God led me to this.  I was scared, I didn't really want to do something this unknown, but it wasn't until I was honest about everything that God could truly work in me and be the strength that I needed.


So I'm actually really excited about this.  I know that God can do great things.  I need to raise $6,000 in less than a month.  For God...no problem.  He's strong.  He can handle His own business.  So I'm sending out support letters tomorrow and letting Him do the rest.


And changing my mind a couple times doesn't worry me.  I almost didn't go to Capernwray.  I had an alternative school in mind and I even told people for a while I was going to go to this other school instead.  But the right thing happened in the end...God tugged on my heart and gave me every ounce of strength I needed.  And maybe I do come off as irresponsible.  But I don't care.  Let my image die if it means giving way to God's will and helping other people.


All this to say, God is taking care of things.  I'm planning on going.  Please pray for me and for the ministry.


God bless.